Cream of Merlot

Waiting for the water to boil. It's 10:49 and I'm just now getting up :/ Excited about this cream of wheat, more excited about the day ahead of me. I'm considering heading up to Runyon on the bus, but I don't know how I'll feel coming back on the bus all sweaty surrounded by far too many people I'm sure. I feel great. I want to say it's been almost 3 weeks that I've been meat free :D Now if only I could eliminate the milk, and the cheese. I am finding that to be extremely difficult. Lord knows I love my cheese...and gatdamnit darn near everything is made with milk! How am I supposed to have a decent cookie around here?! *calming myself* Then I realize, life is not about food *cough* lol.

Yea soooo.... I still can't speak on what's current. Although I'd really like to rant about what's going on in my life, I can't. Well I mean I can, but then it would probably be ruined. It seems as though every time I express that I'm doing something new in my life or something good is happening for me, it goes down the drain lol. So fuck it I'm not saying SHIT. I do want to thank My Creator though as well as any good energy the beautiful people are sending my way. I'm learning to send it back. Not that my energy was necessarily bad but I was never vocal about it. I'm learning to show appreciation for people and what they do....I'm learning to encourage and cheer people on. Maybe I was so scarce with my compliments because I wasn't doing what I truly wanted to do with my own life... maybe I was jealous. I'm not admitting to that but I am writing it down as a possibility. You know...one of those subconscious situations. Anyway, it's a beautiful day and I've got a few things to take care of. Back on my finding peace movement :) I suppose it's a never ending journey. Some days I'm completely serene the next day I'm downing bottles of Merlot (last night.) Although I wasn't unhappy last night, I just had an extra bottle and figured I'd kill it...well... most of it. :/ .... Okay... I know, all bad. Maybe I need help. I say I don't though, so until then, good day :D

-Sydni