Yikes! Coffee...definitely not my cup of tea. (cause it's coffee....get it? lol) Yea uhm....whatever. So last year some time, I got up for work after an extremely late night and was in desperate need of a "pick me up." So, my step-pops suggested this Chinese coffee we had somewhere in the deep crevices of our cabinet. Said it was strong, and it'd be perfect to get me going again . So I drank the coffee thinking nothing of it's hardcore reputation and next thing you know, I'm at work having the most intense anxiety attack. I mean hyperventilating, crying...just lowball FREAKING OUT. It finally wore off after about 2 hours and I returned to my normal state, swearing off Chinese coffee for the rest of my life. Why am I sharing this with you? Well because this morning, again, after a late night I woke up thank GOD without a hangover BUT feeling a little slow and slightly drowsy. So I....*cough*... needing a slight "pick me up" ... *cough* ...decided to have a cup of coffee. 30 minutes later I'm feeling uneasy, I randomly begin tearing up, over analyzing shit I could've swore I was past and bleeding far too much emotion. Every little thing began to annoy me and I found myself suffocating a happy face stress ball. (you know the little squishy ball stress thingies) Yea... I didn't understand where all of this was coming from initially. Like how do you go from such inner peace and happiness to drastic might I mention, UNNECESSARY anxiety?! I'm thinking....oh yea this is the devil...he really wants me on his team. Sitting here trying to figure out why he's working so hard on me, repeating over and over to myself that it's a continuous fight and the only solution is to stay strong in Faith. (yes of course I'm sure all this is true but, I probably was taking it a little further than needed.) Anyway, after staring at my computer screen for 20 minutes I came to the realization that it was the FUCKING COFFEE!! And now.... I'm OK :)
-Sydni
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