Gratitude

I'm so grateful. There isn't really anything else. I don't think I have it in me at the moment to write some extensive blog post because all I feel right now is gratitude. That sort of puts it all together for me. If you knew what I came from and where I'm standing currently along with where I'm headed...you still wouldn't fathom the appreciation I have or the peace or happiness that I feel. I'm almost at a loss for words.....almost lol. God has brought me out of the own pitiful misery I had created for myself and I couldn't be more thankful. It blows my mind that it took me this long to realize that with him is where I needed to be. My life has changed...drastically. I imagine not so much to the naked eye but just yesterday I had a friend tell me I was "glowing." Me...glowing, smh. I don't have to pretend to be happy anymore. I don't have to dress up in peace because it's already there! Daaaaaaamn homie. Just a few months back I was asking someone if it was possible to get out of the mental fuck I was in. I see now.... IT IS SO POSSIBLE!!!! Wow....WOW! I'm learning to succeed in silence so I still don't have much of a desire to express what's going on in my life but....gaaahhhh gha AJFnasdfjAKLDEMSKNwej! *sigh* Life is GOOD. GOD...is GOOOOOOD! lol. I'm too jumbled inside to really keep going.

LONG LIVE THE ALIVE! :)

-Sydni