4 Sacrificial Valleys

I have 4 days off... the fuck am I supposed to do with that? *sigh*... Let me not complain. Tomorrow and Sunday should be fairly busy as it is and I do have a few shoots I can get done within this short break... or whatever you want to call it. But to be honest, I really need a second job. Four days off isn't what's up, nor what's needed. I'm on a quest damnit... the quest of conquer and this shit involves money and lots of it lol. Speaking of, just last night I was having a debate with a friend of mine and he was telling me that in order for me to thrive financially in my crafts I would have to sacrifice artistically. Mm, I disagree...strongly. He asked me for examples of artists who did both and sadly enough my list was short. Erykah Badu being the first to come to mind, he argued that the only reason she's still relevant is because of her large ass display in the Window Seat video. Does anyone else agree with this?! :/ It may have some truth to it but in retrospect the album as a whole was brilliant! And if it took a little ass to get people to pay attention well SO BE IT! Does that take away from my argument? Am I losing? Gah, I'm not looking to be famous here. I just want to express and get paid for it is all. I'm looking for financial stability and of course...a little more *wink wink* lol. I'm determined to prove him wrong and anyone else who feels that art and survival can't ride in the same boat. Sure, I'm aware I live in the land of starving artists, but maybe their networking skills are lacking :/

So, my ex is back in town... I told you all yea? ... maybe not. Well, since he's been back I've decided to give him another go and I suppose you can say date a little bit to see if we've got it in us to go another round. We don't. I'm seeing that now... RIGHT NOW. I am writing this after having gotten off the phone with him about 5 minutes ago. We're arguing...already. And I see now..right now...that he hasn't changed much. I'm telling you, when a guy wants you, his acting skills are heightened to the umpteenth power. He was so sweet a month ago. He wouldn't argue with me if his life depended on it. But now that I'm actually answering his phone calls and allowing him halfway back into my life he feels all willy nilly enough to cop an attitude. The type of "I'm just going to try and switch this back on you" type attitude. Yea, I'm not on that level... I'm far beyond it. Excuses...far beyond em'. So when he attempted to explain himself and I told him I didn't care, his voice revealed a blow to the chest. Yea... no. I'm not doing it. If we're not even committed to one another and we're already arguing, I can only imagine what our relationship would be like once we became exclusive.

Everyone keeps asking why I'm still single... this my friends... this is why. Who's worthy? No one yet.

Next topic. I'm looking for another apartment and all the best deals are in the valley. -_- I don't want to live in the valley. That is all.

-Ziggy