Show me your RED

I've been writing a lot lately, I know....I'd say possibly too much but when could that ever be the case? So, I haven't really analyzed this new obsession of mine or whatever you'd enjoy calling it, but I have this strange fascination with blood. It's so out of the blue smh. ( ....no pun intended...but you wouldn't get it anyway lol...or would you? ) So as I'm scrolling through a #blood hashtag on tumblr I come to the realization that this is filling the void for all the things I've dropped that could be considered dark, sinister, morbid, harmful, menacing etc. etc. etc. lol. "could be considered" meaning what society has convinced us to feel about such and such etc. Fuck, I don't know. If I didn't think some of the things I was doing weren't harmful then why would I feel the need to stop doing them... right? So maybe society has a point, eh? Maybe society got it right this time? But...what is "right?" Cause I mean what's right for me doesn't mean it's right for you or anyone else for that matter. Blah, I'm drifting... uhm... so yea.... BLOOD. It makes me horny...kind of. Something about fresh dripping blood is so... calming and sexy...and.... fulfilling to me. I'm not even sure if those are the words I want to use but they're what came to mind. I could look at photos of cutters and freak accidents all day (slight exaggeration) Also, let me state I have no desire in partaking in the cutting although if you let me cut you ....ha...just....kidding... :/ SO yea.... It has to be real though or at least convincing. I get irritated when I see fake zombie photos and artists portraying graphic vampires and recreating murder scenes....it bores me. And no I'm not for the mutilated and deformed body parts and faces. It's just...the blood. Is it really possible that I just have to have that GORE fix? That dark, disturbing piece in my system? It's like since I'm not fucking, smoking, over-drinking, mentally ruining myself... the next best thing is.... blood? I've created this theory. It's obviously not well thought out and it may not make much sense but... I figured I'd present something.

Shall I share a bit with you?

-Me of course.