Expecting all of nothing.

expectations usually lead to disappointment so i expect nothing. therefore anticipation isn't really an option because what would I be anticipating if I expect nothing. kind of takes the fun out of....everything. so... i expect something although i attempt to expect nothing. i don't know... maybe i have too many personal issues to be involved with someone. maybe once i present myself it's a lot to handle cause i come with this that and everything you never....expected... remember... expect nothing..but of course u expected something. we all did. it sucks when you're the disappointment. or does it...cause at least i'm not disappointed... i'm fine... like wine... with age I taste better.... so do you save me to find out, guzzle me sour faced, or pass me along as a Christmas gift....guzzling is actually not an option cause.... my existence is still... existing? existing....with no expectations... so then how are tears involved? oh yea...cause i expected something... i mean... it just wasn't this. the element of surprise is the most beautiful, pain...full... yes full... two L's cause when there's pain it's full...like... a glass of hotttt water... filled to the top...full... u thought the water was cold cause the glass is... temperature proof...lmao...temperature proof...and then u took a sip and now ur lips, tongue, and throat are burning.... for... longer than u were sipping...meaning u swallowed... ur lips were the first things to experience such a burn yet they are...still burning. the element of surprise is so painful....l..... full of pain when there is pain but when there is beauty boy is it... beauti...full.. yea full with two L's cause..... oh need I go on? You expected me to i'm sure but.... i won't cause... i'd rather... hit u with the element of surprise. haha. if you ask... i'm telling... so expect nothing cause... what i tell you may not be what you expected....and then you might be disappointed...or... beautifully surprised... who knows... i don't know.. i don't know anything but what i think i know.... what do you know? or what do you THINK you know? cause you don't really know anything....

-SydniMichael