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My name is as unisex as it can get, i'm a 20 year old scorpio living up to only half of the rumors meaning i'm a freak..not a bitch. i'm highly insecure but am slowly stepping over that issue. I need music....need..meaning without it my life would be in shambles and in conclusion you'd find me hanging from a rope. do I really need music? maybe not... but i need it. I.. can't cook but am willing to learn.. i have fantasies of standing over the stove, naked, as i cook i can feel my man's dick rub against my butt. i love volleyball and am disappointed in myself for not taking that passion/skill to college. i type really fast, i don't speak to my dad...but i will soon. i'm a sucker for good conversation, i can talk on the phone for hours. when i love, i love hard so i try not to love until i know someone's loving me harder. i can dance... well... i wish i had more ass, i wish my tits were perkier, i think women are so sexy and when i masturbate i always imagine a 3some. i'm a private person but i'm not private at all. u may not understand... oh well. i've been in the gym everyday and willl be for the next 3-4 months so that next summer i can walk around naked with a smile on my face... and all of yours too. i love to kiss, a man touched me without really touching me and i almost had an orgasm. i don't watch too much television, i love photography and can possibly see that as my career. i don't trust anyone.... anyone at all and that seems to be fucking up my relationships... my intimate ones at least. I have 10 tattoos and can admit i'm addicted. i was ashamed of my sexual decisions for a while but I grew out of that depression... i've been done dirtier than a soccer uniform...but i can't seem to hold grudges... at all. i have no enemies.. i'm more open minded than a cut open brain, math is interesting when i pay attention but it doesn't seem to hold my interest long enough for me to ...pay attention. i love to write. if there were a set of twins... i'd choose the chocolate one.. a chocolate man is the sexiest man... but believe i will enjoy a vanilla man as well :) ...i used to be a flaker... i've gotten much better. i used to lie, a lot...i don't anymore... i appreciate brutal honesty... i'm clumsy sometimes.. i don't like to be touched by other's feet. i havent had the joy of loving anyone whole heartedly... i crave that :-\ ... i don't take my shirt off when i have sex.... i love getting fucked from the back... sex in a car is so limited, any kind of music is music... hip hop will never die as long as i'm alive...many others as well... i want to marry a man who's not ashamed to wear flip flops... i want a man who's not a homophob... i hate the phrase "no homo" ...I just heard Michael Jackson is about to die....oh my i can't imagine how the world is going to react... im thrilled about my future president and I think he is extremely seeexy, im not sure if anyone made it this far... why isn't Oprah my auntie? I love black toe nail polish, my phone service is verizon, I love pooping and talking on the phone.. i simply love pooping, in my life im simply seeking liberation but realize im not quite there yet for the fact that people still have the ability to make me feel stupid. I hate it when im dead serious about a situation, and people ask me "what the fuck are you talking about?" i can't stand when people put their daily schedules or most intimate feelings on their aim aways...i talk a lot especially when im passionate about something, i know exactly what my wedding is going to look like.. i won't be wearing white...i think im going to open up my own club spot/lounge, i love the feng shui in my home.. i think id be an excellent interior designer. i love ceelo andree 3000, red hot chili peppers, system of a down, alicia keys, floetry, i could go on but i wont cause this wud never end...i fux with mary jane... i always try to quit but cant seem to do it yet... i drink ocassionally, i feel like the previous 3 years of my life.. i was a complete idiot.. i can act.. very well. it was my passion as a child... i love to debate... i don't believe in labels, bi, gay, ho, hoodrat, crazy, etc etc. i went to boarding school and it played a huge role on who i am today..people consider me to be weird... i consider me to be..me. i love meeting new people.. i get irritated with ppl who put up a front. i had an abortion.. it changed my life... sometimes i think my heart is non existent... i know this is not true... i love getting the mangos off the corner with the chili on em... i love sourpatch kids and m&ms...i hate letting a guy know im super into him... i make up stories of how i wish things could be sometimes.. i think i have SO much to offer.. i just dont know how to... offer it..i spend nights alone cause my heart is stingy... currently at least...i love words...i miss old friends... im in love with humanity.




-SydniMichael