im feeling a little tired but quite alive at the very same time. i'm feeling useless like there is nothing I can do, but there is so much to do. i have nothing to say, i have no one to love, so this eager heart of mine is stuck here loving me and I guess that's okay. it's okay to only love me and no one else right? or is that selfish? i'm a sucker for candid pictures that with a bit of editing can be transformed into editorials for a magazine. i'm a sucker for spontaneity, but the good kind, not the kind that makes me feel uncomfortable like i might be doing something wrong... that's no fun. well it's no fun until it turns out to be the night of your life. :-) I stutter when i'm in the midst of explaining something... anything. people think it's hilarious, i find it rather frustrating. you never got the point. im emotional as if my period were everyday... not moody.. emotional. I love harder than hitting a ground of boulders with the thought that u were jumping into a cool pool on a hot summer day.... it was boulders instead. ouch. i'm really stupid sometimes. my discipline level is that of an 8th grader. i'm exaggerating... i've improved greatly actually but am not nearly to the point i believe i should be. my vocabulary sucks. i read friends' blogs and am like... "why didnt IIII use that word?" i'm simple and overly complex at the same time. call me an oxymoron... without the moron cause i'm no one's moron. left or right? i wouldn't be able to choose... i'm too indecisive. i love talking to people who make me question myself, my values, my lifestyle. i just deactivated my facebook account...temporarily. music is amazing. i don't have any inspiration and it's making me upset....i.... you... we... they.. her... him... womp womp. look.... writer's block.... say hello. hahha....that's enough laughing.
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do you ever really find yourself?
i hope so, cause i'm so lost.
peaceofmind
-SydniMichael
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