..gently down the stream.

I always say "people never cease to amaze me." psh... I never cease to amaze my damn self. They say never regret your mistakes cause you learn from them but.... i must've been absent during the lesson cause I keep making the same mistakes. It makes me feel stupid. Like... SYDNI!!!! YOu've been here before.... you've done this already... WAKE THE FUCK UP! but shit.... I don't wake up til i'm curled up in a corner shedding tears for the 8th time over the same mistake. Not only have I cried myself a river but I've cried myself a river so long it eventually led to the ocean and man I'm tryna hop up off this fuckin boat yo.